Caution, this post is of reflective nature. Do not expect direct sharing of value through resources and tools. Expect an inner monologue as I reflect on letting go of approval and acceptance from others.
Like you, I judge myself. There are things that I tell myself I must change in order to be or feel more accepted. The things that currently shout at me are my need to be financially independent from my parents and do that by struggling and working a job I don't really like.
I make myself wrong for being in a position where I don't have to work, one, and I don't have to pay for my own stuff. That includes rent and other bills.
I feel bad. I feel like I'm supposed to be struggling. I feel like I'm supposed to be hating my life before I earn the right to love it.
I didn't ask to be born into a situation where my parents are financially secure. I didn't ask to have parents that give to me, a lot, both emotionally and materially.
Yet, that's my situation. I feel bad and I've felt this way for a long time, even when I was in grade school.
Many people who become successful and enjoy the type of things I'm blessed to enjoy, they started with poverty, nothing. I didn't come from poverty. I came from above average financial means. But, my parents worked hard and from poverty.
Here's the thing, must poverty always be the vehicle in which people work hard for more? If that's the case, then poverty will never go away. Right?
I don't want to become wealthy only to have my children going through poverty, the very thing I sought to avoid. That's the same thing my parents deal with I imagine.
I don't think it has to be that way. There must be another way. I know there is.
There must be a way to be empowered by the wealth of my parents. To use it as a tool, not a crutch.
Cause I don't want to have to work jobs I don't want. And at the same time I want to earn my keep. And I want to develop the character and wherewithal to overcome adversity even if it means having nothing.
I'm not sure what that will look like, but I know it's possible to create it in other ways other than default life situations.
Meaning, a person doesn't have to be born into poverty in order to learn the lessons that poverty teaches; ultimately to get to the other side of poverty, which does require things like grit, hunger, discipline, and what not.
Here's a thought. All it comes down to, really, is culture. If we were born into a culture that breeds successful people who come from successful upbringings, then that's what the children become.
Ah, but first you need adults leading the way. And thus a whole society that supports it, literally creates it actually. Along with it are rules, standards, and other things that, BY DEFAULT, create humans that become successful from successful backgrounds.
Interesting.
