It's officially been three weeks since I quit driving for Doordash in favor of pursuing my dreams full time. It's been awesome, fun, uncertain, risky, and overall a damn good time. Yet, still, despite the amount of growth and productivity I'm making, I still feel that whole "I'm not good enough" sensation in the back of my mind, heart, and soul every now and then. BUT WHO CARES. Cheers! To the mind and its illusions, for I am not a victim to its games. I CHOOSE TO MOVE FORWARD!
Results wise, here is what I've done in the last three weeks:
- written a blog post every day
- managed to ration my last $400 paycheck for food and gas with no consistent income (practically zero)
- join and partake in a 30-day training/nutrition program with a group called Elite24
- created my first ever podcast
- wrote a 50 page ebook in 24 hours
- uploaded that ebook for sale on Amazon.com
- pro-bono Life Coaching for four really awesome clients
- grow every f*cking day
You know what's funny? In terms of executing my big goals, I've done more in the last 3 weeks than I have in the last 3 years. You know what's even funnier? SOMEHOW IT STILL FEELS LIKE IT'S NOT ENOUGH. Like I said in the beginning though, that feeling is a complete mental illusion. It's not true. It's only true if I make it true. It's subjective, based on my own standards. I choose to celebrate the last three weeks and the results I've produced.
To celebrate I am taking a day "off." What that looks like is having a loose schedule and allowing myself to do stuff I used to do prior to going all in on my dreams. Things like buying a used book at the thrift store and buying food that's made for me (lmao, having to only eat groceries and cook for myself has been quit the lifestyle shock). I'm learning that stepping away from a rigorous schedule and slowing it down for a day or two is a necessary aspect to living a balanced, healthy life in my opinion.
Yet, somehow, on my day "off", I've managed to stay productive without being so gung-ho about it. For example, I had an amazing, synergistic Life Results Coaching session with one of my clients. Shortly after, I uploaded my first ever ebook to Amazon! I guess by day "off" I meant sleeping late last night and waking up at around 9am today. And not having every minute of the day scheduled out. LOL.
I made room for spontaneity. Room for flexibility. Only 1-2 things on the agenda instead of 17. I actually might adjust my daily approach to productivity such that life feels easier and more peaceful than it does stressful and always on the go.
Or maybe I just needed a break. OR I DON'T KNOW! Lol
In any case, it's been a hell of a last three weeks. Here's to the next three!
CHEERS!
Gabriel Santos
